What are you Chasing?

I was twenty years old, living on my own and was making pretty decent money at the time. I had gotten my license about 6 months before, so obviously when you start to add up these accolades “Heston” was well on his way. I was saved, single, living solo and all I needed now to seal my arrival to this oh so critical level of societal and cultural reverence…. was a Car.

So the hunt began and after a couple of days of searching I ended up finding a three year old burgundy Nissan Stanza. During the purchase process I was introduced to a really amazing and seemingly generous friend. Yet little did I know this friend, who went by the name of “Financing”, would later turn on me and become an enemy.

Now there is nothing intrinsically wrong with buying a car at the youthful age of 20, however I believe that for me if I opted for a more simple purchase option and saved up for a hoopty there would have been a lot of stress that I would have likely avoided. Somehow my mind had manufactured a persona that I was trying to live up to..... and a shadow that I was trying to chase.

Certainly I don’t beat up myself too much for the choices I made, especially when I was young and impressionable.  However, even as I have entered the fourth decade of my life the truth is that this shadow still shows up from time to time. Its a shadow that looks like me; but only richer, flashier and even more adored and celebrated. It’s visit always presents me with a decision. Either to chase what is-not-yet or to cherish what already-is.

These days I still will CHASE something.  I will more often [chase] purpose and to [cherish] simplicity

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